Fear

I wonder if we really give God enough credit?

It seems to me that most of us believe we are in control of everything - or at least most things. My success, my finances, my life - I think it all depends on me. We think that everything we've achieved in the world is because we are so clever, industrial, intelligent.

I think this is only half the picture - not even that. Actually, I think this is a miniscule bit of the picture. I think that God controls everything - my life, my money, my success, my circumstances, my possessions, my ambitions, my health....... Without God, I am nothing. Any creativity, passion, knowledge, wisdom, friends - anything I have - is because of God. He gives me life. He could quite literally take my breath away any second.

That scares me a little bit.

I think it would be fairly arrogant to believe that I am in control. Seriously, what control do I have over my life? I could be out driving today and a truck could total me. My house could catch on fire. Centrelink could send me a letter saying I need to pay them back four grand. I could already have cancer and not know about it. My boss could fire me. And on the upside, I could be randomly promoted. I could get a cheque today for four grand from an anonymous person. Someone could give me a car. My wife might fall pregnant (except that she already is...!). Any of these could alter my life totally, and I have no control over any of them.

Who is in control of all of life? Well, you could say no one is, which is a bit depressing. I choose to believe that God is.

For this reason, I think that we need to fear God a whole lot more than we do now.... myself included. I need to come to God trembling, the way I fear my boss - times infinity. This I think is the beginning of wisdom.